Well, it's official. After spending all summer delaying the inevitable, I've finally moved into my home for the next year. I am now a resident of Room 190 in Park House on the Washington University in St. Louis campus.
Right now, my feels are all over the place.
I am at once incredibly sad about leaving behind my friends in Minnesnowta, especially coming fresh off of the nostalgia-packed last days which follow any significant experience. Who would've thought that I would have the chance to go stargazing with my friends, something I've wanted to do for years especially after witnessing its application in anime, just a few days before I left. Honestly, that was an unforgettable night and Lo really missed out. #hammerwithajetpack
I know in the back of my mind that this isn't the end; I will get to see my friends again in the future. But our relationships as they are now are already a relic of the past. Never again will we be so in tune with another, never so much on the same page as we get ready to turn a new page in each of our respective books. As we head down our individual paths, we will only grow more distant. I can't help but worry if I will ever resonate so much with another group of individuals.
To be honest, I'm worried about making new friends at WashU. Sure I'll always have James around for support, but I feel like academic circumstance won't be as much in my favor this time around. As I sit here in this empty dorm room, looking back on all of the memories I've made in high school, I can't help but worry if I will find people who like me for who I am, people who I feel completely comfortable around, people who are like family to me.
My fingers will be crossed for the next four years.
College, even now, feels like something distant on the horizon. I don't feel like the magnitude of this transition will hit me until October in all honesty. Gawd, I'm not looking forward to studying again for classes. No matter how hard I try to evaluate myself, I can never figure out what I want from life. It's just not in my programming at this point.
As I look back on my childhood and look forward to adulthood, I hope my days of innocence have not vanished. I'm not done being a kid yet.
Right now, my feels are all over the place.
I am at once incredibly sad about leaving behind my friends in Minnesnowta, especially coming fresh off of the nostalgia-packed last days which follow any significant experience. Who would've thought that I would have the chance to go stargazing with my friends, something I've wanted to do for years especially after witnessing its application in anime, just a few days before I left. Honestly, that was an unforgettable night and Lo really missed out. #hammerwithajetpack
I know in the back of my mind that this isn't the end; I will get to see my friends again in the future. But our relationships as they are now are already a relic of the past. Never again will we be so in tune with another, never so much on the same page as we get ready to turn a new page in each of our respective books. As we head down our individual paths, we will only grow more distant. I can't help but worry if I will ever resonate so much with another group of individuals.
To be honest, I'm worried about making new friends at WashU. Sure I'll always have James around for support, but I feel like academic circumstance won't be as much in my favor this time around. As I sit here in this empty dorm room, looking back on all of the memories I've made in high school, I can't help but worry if I will find people who like me for who I am, people who I feel completely comfortable around, people who are like family to me.
My fingers will be crossed for the next four years.
College, even now, feels like something distant on the horizon. I don't feel like the magnitude of this transition will hit me until October in all honesty. Gawd, I'm not looking forward to studying again for classes. No matter how hard I try to evaluate myself, I can never figure out what I want from life. It's just not in my programming at this point.
As I look back on my childhood and look forward to adulthood, I hope my days of innocence have not vanished. I'm not done being a kid yet.
9:57 PM
NoelVermillion
